I am SICK
Ya I am a SICK person, are you not scared of being a friend with me?
Sometimes, I, my self, am afraid of my self
So many thoughts roaring on my mind, asking me to follow them one by one
God, show me the way..to control my mind, so many internal dialogues interfere my actions
I wanna be normal without hearing those evil thoughts
A vision from future that I always sleep on it, makes me guess what will happen to me next
God, what is it? Why I can feel something that doesn’t happen yet? I can feel it on my bones
Or just close my eyes, that vision just plays on my mind like movie
I am scared, really scared, that it is really happenings
Why should be a bad thing that you show me, that you want me to feel it and worry about it?
Not a good thing so I can feel happy for a while
My eyes they refuse to sleep..that bad thing, this damn vision is contagious
My body is shivering, knowing that the bad thing will embrace me and people that I love
I cover my eyes and a pillow on them; I hide my self in the dark night just to escape my self from that vision
Oh please God, set me free..
I don’t want to see those bad things again that you will transfer into my minds! Don’t use me to see what I don’t want to see
Let the bad things come without warning and I think it is better
Damn with sixth sense, I don’t want to have it anymore or I never want it!
It is just freaking me out..though I get down my knees and pray but the bad thing doesn’t change
So easy for me to get punishment soon when I do a mistake
That’s great to get back what I’ve just done..but I never want a feeling
The feeling shakes me up, tells me that this is my bad day
GOD, Just make the thing a surprise without telling me the clue
I am not an angel or a holy woman that should belong this feeling
So, please do not show me something bad..just let it happen.
I wanna let this feeling go
So I can live normally
Not speaking to my self a lot like a lunatic man, though sometimes I prefer being alone to speaking to you!
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