Time Flies when we are having fun, the other way around : Time runs slowly when we are not having fun.
Writing and Syntax Class were terrible! Writing class with Mrs. Laksmi was like a cliffhanger, I always got my nerves. We all though that she was a hard nut to crack because at first she insisted on having Friday’s writing class on Saturday, just in case if she could not come to teach on Friday.
Taking up this subject is such a learning curve,
As usual she gave us a routine assignment. The topic for the following meeting was Argumentative Essay using our own writing/experience. Then I wrote about my days in this new university. I didn’t know why I wrote such an essay but I believe that Writing is an honest expression of our selves. People can lie by words but people can not lie by writing.
New Surrounding Problems
"Some students are worried when their first day school begins. They usually feel nervous and skeptics to deal with new surroundings like new classmates and new teachers/lectures. I see that because strange feelings I feel when I step in this university every morning. I feel what those students are through. Some students become quite students though they are so active at the previous school/college and at home. It takes a time to settle down with new surroundings. Sociologists and other researchers spend a lot of time looking at new surroundings (new school/college) for students and how they are linked to the social, emotional/mental health, and academic matters. Though it is two months already that I have been here. Not any words I can speak, just a big fear covers my self. I am trying so hard to tell my self that everything is going to be alright but it can not help. The classes I attend here are never the same as my classes at Brawijaya University. It is really different from my previous university that offered homey feeling whenever I stepped in. New lectures and classmates make me feel worried and strange. Would they be as nice as I had before? This question haunts my mind and still I do not find out the answer. I never crossed in my mind that I continue my study at state university of Malang. I thought I would get a job after graduating and start my own business with some friends of mine but God has decided the other plan for me that I may be meant to be a teacher so this university is my destination. I can see that some problems rise up. I lose something in my self that causes such problems to explore my self in the classes. The new surroundings can cause some problems.
First, New surroundings affect me in academic studies. I always have so much trouble adjusting especially in new surroundings. Basically, I am really sensitive for a few days and pretty depressed. I don't know why and I lose my concentration at some classes. Some subjects that I used to do well are going to be bad. It seems that some pressures rise up when I still can not integrate with new classmates. When I have difficulties at understanding some matters, it is hard for me to ask some friends next to me and this makes me feel like the stupidest students in the class. I should be a social person; otherwise this leads to self-confident-decreasing.
Second, new surroundings can cause some social problems. It can be seen when I still feel strange to my new classmates. I prefer sitting in next to my old friend from Brawijaya to sitting next to other classmates. This seems that I do not come along with them; even I do not recognize some classmates who always sit in the last row when we are passing each other on the street because I always sit in the first row. Even I can not remember their names one by one though we have been in the same classes many times. Unlike my classmates in Brawijaya University that we always hung out together after school like we went to bookshop or for dinner and here I can not do that though.
Third, emotional/mental health problems are also going well with new surroundings. Being in a classroom with a lack of resources might adversely impact students’ mental health because they are frustrated or disheartened by their surroundings. I always feel worried whenever I should go find a group of discussion. I am afraid that I will not get some classmate to discuss with. So I end up joining a group discussion with my old classmate from Braijaya University. This unsecure feeling is gone when I get home. It also effects my imagination when I am going to do my writing. I just can not set my mind free about things that I am going to write. How hard I am trying to be creative, still this feeling takes a big part of my self.
On the other hand, new surroundings make me feel challenged to explore my self though a big fear still lingers on me. Sometimes, I am trying to be out of my comfort zone but it does not last long. How I miss my old classmates and lectures throws me off to the ground. However, if I do not give a chance for my self to understand new surrounding where I belong now, I will not figure out good things here that make me a successful person for others.
I can conclude that students like me need the support and encouragement from teachers/lectures and also colleagues so the students can strive and are able to cope with new surroundings. Especially parents that have built and shape the characteristics of those children should be aware when their children look not good related to school/college matters like they used to be because home is the best place for children to be when something goes wrong. Soon or later, it will be helpful to go through all the matters. Each student has a right to feel secure in new surroundings and fun when teaching and learning activities begin, so do I."
The following week came up and I was always nervous to wait for my score and some revisions as well. Then she called out my name, I sat next to her. She looked at me and said that we (Mrs.Laksmi and I) were in the same boat. She said if I found it difficult to write/make an essay on new neighborhood so I needed to work hard twice than others, so did she. While listening to her explanation, I almost burst into crying. I felt a lump in the throat when she gave my paper back with some handwritings said ‘ You need not to worry your self, please be happy in our campus because you are just special’. Thank You Mrs.Laksmi, I am so sorry to get you wrong that way
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