I miss you like hell

The day you left

I counted every step you made

Hopping that day would never come

I cried in tears some nights and got down my knees praying that you would never really leave

That God told all angels to make you stay here but most of angels were travelling throughout the world so they did not listen to God at that time

I was scared that you would come to see me again or the other way

Because I found some peace when I was around you

The seconds that I hated most was saying good bye

I was angry at God, why he made us apart

Remember how we laughed at the most stupid things

Like we were the happiest people in the world, nothing could compare to our happy times

I want you to come and hold my hands when there is a hole in my soul though it is for a minute

I want to hear waves on the sea and make footprints on white sands with you as Indonesian friends do not really like to go to the beach. They think that beach is their foe, making their skin tan because they are having beauty treatment especially to whiten their skin;)

I hope that things will always be the same like we were together when we meet up someday

We leave some years and we are growing up, we find some new friends, some lovers, and some new experiences that we used to tell each other.

The thing I miss the most is waking you up in the very early morning and you said that it was still night

I can feel still when I close my eyes, those memories are playing and bringing me into those times

Our laughs are heard, our jokes are still funny, and our wish to be together never fades

Thanks God, you had met us in joy and tears..

This earth is round,

it is just a small world

but I need to cross the ocean to meet them

I need to fly away, jump on one cloud to another cloud to see them

I need to ride on a king of eagle to smile at them

distance doesn’t matter for some people but it does for me

Or I just spend all my time waiting for that second chance to make those times back

No idea when those glorious days will be happening

Yeah I know that It’s time for me to move on

Figuring out this life with a hope to embrace new days that make me a grown up

Smiling at our times when I am down

our goodbye hug shakes me up and it is so sad

I saw your back at airport at the last minute

And started that day, I hate airport

It is like a cave which swallows someone and never gives that person back.