Confession..

They know that I am a looser

I am too scared to start a new page

I am a good planner but not a good one to make the plans come true

I hold a grudge against some people in years

I can not forgive them, it is so hard to live and bury the hatchet

And making an apology is such a hard thing

I am such an evil person, I live with hatred turning on

Because I can not fight with my bad feelings, they always win

I can not get my self back on my track, whenever I try to think of a new life

The pain in the past comes up and tells me that I need to take revenge

I should have put this madness to an end, but I find it hard

Oh God, please wash my brain and give me a new and nice brain so no space for black thought anymore. I think my brain is a real lemon and starts breaking down. No need a sophisticated brain, only a simple brain that never hates people. Where can I buy such a brain?