Sorry..

I don’t know since when I feel that I am a grown up

Probably when I hit my head on the wall by accident

So at that time, my brain works properly and gets rid of all my imaginations before sleep about some demons watching over me

I am too old to be yelled out by Mom, I wish her to stop doing that

I slammed the door and she did the same after me

Most of neighbors came out to see what happened couple days ago, they might think that there was a fire in my house but it’s actually mom who fired me..

She was cursing me that God would punish me soon and I just died then, and if I would have a family my husband would do bad things to me. That’s what I heard last time, and the rest I couldn’t hear because I hardly breathed for her words.

I rode my motor around my town, wishing her words come true by a truck might run into me so I would be in some pieces. That’s what she desired at that time to prove that what she had done was 100% correct.

On the other side, A mother should not have spoken or cursed bad things to her kids. Doesn’t it include sin? Or only kids can make sins for their parents?

It’s not the first bad thing getting to me.

Couple years ago, she threw a flower vase up on my door and kicked the door as well.

I was so afraid hiding behind my door, wishing her to go soon but she shouted like crazy

I just wanted to die, I tried to cover my ears but her words were running through my head

Every single word was killing me

I thought God was sleeping and didn’t hear my prayer

I should not be hoping for big things that she buys for me

As whenever we are in fight, she takes it back

I am a good daughter like other mothers are dreaming for

I got 1^st or 2^nd rank for my 6 year in elementary school

Most of teachers liked me in Junior High School

And some of teachers in Senior High School remember my name when we come across

I got an honorable student in my university and got scholarship few times

I do not drink or go to night club, I always listen to you about things Do’s and Don’ts

What should I do to make you proud? You disapprove me all long

Am I not good enough?