Dear Mbk Niin (my friend, my foe, and my another sister)

How can I not dislike her?  She is the only one, my friend, who yells alot at me! I can yell back at her and just ignore her but she owns several things that remind me of my sister. In fact, we never lose anything in this life..If we feel that we lose something, actually God has sent another thing called something that we may not realise it. We just have to find it, or it just comes itself and feel it since the look is sometimes not alike but the feeling is the same as our lost thing called something.

I never lose my real sister, though I try to get rid of her in my life. She, the one who yells alot at me, is my sister’s silleute.

Several things she owns that some of people I know and I love own the same. Her bossiness looks like my aunt’s. The way she argues with me as if I argued with my grandmother.After all, she is the spitting image of my sister: the attitudes that i think only my real sister owns them but she owns some : The way she talks to me, the way she suggests me, the way she looks at me, the way she ignores me when she gets mad. God put great mixed ingredients in hers (Yeahhh, most of them are all bad hahaha). For me my sister has died, my sister means nothing and God can take her away from me anytime.. I will not cry in tears, I have buried all the good memories of ours..They are nothing! My disappointments still linger, I have no idea when they will fade away.

I have never been this close to a friend that I’ve just met in a short time. First time we spoke to each other, it rang my bells, as if I spoke to my sister. I can not speak to my sister anymore because my hatred ties my way. I learn not to lose my temper easily whenever she gets mad at small stuff, does she realize that her anger is so destructive? She likes banging anything, punching something to release her anger, but it is driving me crazy. My memory takes me back to the way how my parents were in fight. Does she realize that she hurts me alot whenever she gets mad? Cant she see some tears blocking in my eyes? She is kind of selfish sometimes, she never learns that she can not do that to me, to people. But I learned alot from her, she is becoming my sister that my sister used to teach me anything! God never sleeps, God has created another sister to keep me in my track. Though I am keen to pay her back, she is too nice to be treated that way. I like her as my sister’s silleute, but I hate her as well whenever she gets mad! Just stop being violent ...

She is such a caring person like my sister. She knows when i make a mistake but she is not supposed to yell at me. Do I like being yelled out? She tells me many things that my sister used to tell me. I want to stop comparing her with my sister but she owns too many things that only my sister owns! How can I hate her? When she said that she would take a stand of me, if my friends badmouth me. She taught me to respect my self and to defend me. She is actually a very nice person if she lessens screams and yells. She is adorable if she lessens to grumble. She is my friend, my foe, and my another sister anyhow. She is much wiser, much older, and much more grumpy from her age. She is so potential to be anyone in my family that I wanna kick one’s ass ( I avoid) and I wanna buy one’s ice cream ( I like). How can I hate her while she talks something that my friends never talks such a thing? ;) As she is my another sister! That is it!;)