Home is not faces that look familiar to you anymore, it is either not a building where your old room awaits, not the food you used to taste, or smiles you owned. Empty, lost, and anxious! That's how I feel now, this is not what I m looking for. I ll make my way home soon! Nothing's gonna stop me.

True Love

Dear Megan and John,

Thank you so much to let me in to your life. I wanna let you know that you guys are beautiful souls. In my life I had lost some faith, not trusted about love, and hated a 'marriage' term. For me, Marriage was a short-term-period which I could change and just say 'we'd better split up' when I got bored. But it wasnt! You beautiful souls have taught me what love is. 

Because you failed once or twice doesnt mean you could throw your arms up into the sky and say ' I m done with it forever'. I thought love wouldnt give us second chance. For me love is non-recyclable item, I couldnt fix it or find the new one.  But I was so wrong! Spending time with you and John and your big family have made me think that you can always find a love no matter how long the journey is, as long as you open your heart you'd get one. 

My late dad and my mum might not give me a perfect example of marriage but I have been so lucky to learn from you and others during my stay in Moora. I wanna get married too someday, and I always remember that. 

Me Hosted By The Most Awesome Family in Moora

Today Rhenice took me to Netball match, I met some of her friends. First, we didn’t talk a lot, only some words per hours not per minutes haha. She picked up them one by one, just drove down and the last one was Arkha. We went to pick her up at her workplace. Woooh, it’s really cool because her mum was coming too! What’s gonna happen during the trip? As we had different ages. Indonesian young people try not to take their mums during trip with friends because mothers like leaking or telling embarrassing things about us! But this may be something new from me.

As usual, road trip makes me sleepy..I absolutely love sleeping in the car and any place as long as I can lean on my back haha. I tried so hard not to sleep at that time, not everyday I would go to Lincelin and also I may sleep with an open mouth..Oh not cool! I looked out of the window and tried to find some kangaroos like Rhenice said that I m gonna find a lot of kangaroos around. Bad Luck? Oh I just saw a lot of cows and sheep, I was dreaming roasted beef or lamb running on the green field waiting to be eaten! Oh..Fasting Month, you are awesome.

Great music, lots of laughter, and good view..Oh heaven, what else do we need? Oh no food..Oh still 8 hours to eat! We passed a beautiful and white beach, Rhenice asked her friend who was driving to stop there, and yup it’s beautiful..The smell of sea water, I just wanna jump off but wait! Remember this is a countryside, what I used to watch at National Geographic/Discovery Channel might be happening.. Giants jelly fish or Crocodiles, or even sharks there. Oh..It would be not nice if I lost my fingers or toes, the worst might be a hole in my thigh because of shark’s bite. Too dangerous!

We just arrived at kind of court, field, and an open stadium maybe? It’s nice and close to the beach and I could hear the waves. Esther, Rhenice’s Mum, was a coach and she made some strategies to beat the opponent team. Wait wait what’s Netball? Oh it’s kind of basket ball but a bit different, one passes the ball to another one and it’s like chain, then you just try to throw the ball into a net. Try to bounce the ball only once. I met a guy or a girl, I couldn’t decide for few hours if it’s male or female. Stil mystery till he went to MALE toilet. His name is Wilz Marshall, he’s nice and taught me how to play. Wooohoo.. I was too excited then thirsty, still 5 hours to drink! The match started, I saw some young mothers running and hopping like kangaroos, really awesome. They are mostly tall and big, so I m not sure If I can play this someday with Australian people otherwise they are gonna squash me or accidentally stomp on me. I wanna come back to Indonesia in one piece!

I wasn’t sure who lost or won, after all it’s really a good game. Esther came and ask me who is the best player, I didn’t pick Rhenice even she is my hostmum hahaha I need to be FAIR, I could pick Rhenice but she needed to buy me good food then (Bribery!!). I liked Chelsea, how she played and tried so hard to get the ball when the opponent player passed it to another one, she jumped, ran , and moved quickly. Rhenice? I saw her pushing some players, I knew it’s an accident but  she did like ‘Ooh..sorry..sorry’. Lucky she got bigger body than others so she wouldn’t be pushed down!

The game was finished, all looked happy and tired even one player, Rhenice’s Friend, got injured but she’s gonna be ok. We then went to watch another football match, I heard lot of swearing.. Wooohooo..Learn it quickly!! Esther was swearing so many times, she didn’t realize ‘ Ohhh..Come on, shit man..take that shit ball’, or ‘ Oh shit, idiot..you deserved it’. Woohoo.. I should have counted how many ‘SHITS’ she swore haha or just recorded and gave it as a birthday present. She might get a mini heart attack. Haha..But don’t worry it’s really nice, we just need to be the way we are, be original. Even Rhenice and the others were swearing, oh really good isn’t it? Hahaha. I just knew this game but it’s kind of magic, people got absorbed and became really good commentator or spectator! They are really talented!:)

I told Rhenice about some ads on tv that really make no sense but bloody FUNNY! Let pick ‘ Maltesers’, Rhenice gave me a box of choco ball ‘ Maltesers’, it’s really yummy and after I watched the ads, I was thinking that I needed to stop eating that other wise I would go crazy! So the lady was in the office and felt like having a bad day, then her colleague gave her some maltesers and guess what? The lady felt so confident and being over the moon, so she flashed her bra to another male colleague passing by. Oh God!! Rhenice was so laughing and told me that she might stopping eating that choco ball before something bad happened. Yeah we were on the van, and Rhenice wanted to take revenge or mock some people who supported opponent team, she flashed her red bra and the people outside were laughing and us too. She might eat that choco ball this afternoon. And again, on the way some cars behind us and Rhenice did it. Oh my goodness, Esther was there and laughing. Luckily they were not Indonesians. Haha.. The mum would get a massive heart attack when she saw her daughter flashing her bra! Culture shock? No, I watched this scene many times on tv;) It’s live scene in front of me, Ah I should have recorded it. Crazy!!

We stopped at a store and Rhenice bought me some dinner, I had chips, salmon nugget, and beef and cheese sausages. It’s good, and I needed to eat a lot after witnessing some ‘awesome’ things, yeah flashing bra is still the best! My hostmum is so crazy!haha I couldn’t even put into words how she’s behaving that night. I know she’s crazy..

They started drinking and drinking, wooah as if they were fasting and not drinking for three days. Chelsea was not drinking so she drove us somewhere. Loud music, some talks, booze, and laughter..It’s been a long time I hadn’t had this great time since Robyn and Kasia left, reminded me of Bali. Oh I m missing those great moments. They were singing, dancing, and talking not sure if they were drunk or just tipsy. Then they asked Chelsea to stop somewhere, I thought we arrived at Pub in the middle of nowhere or hidden pub where only VVIP invitations can go. So dark and they all got off.. Anna was holding tissue toilet at the door and everyone got tissue. Oh wait, they peed or weewee! Oh since when this stop just became an open toilet? Chelsea should turn on the light and flashed them all, haha. Or how if kangaroos came and joined as well? Oh girls.. Even Anna peed on her feet!

We just got to the Pub and it’s really nice, oh people celebrated the games today. All ordered beer pr alcohol, I wanna some milk or orange juice. Rhenice offered me something to drink and I told her if they had milk, some people were laughing..Oh I forgot that Pub doesn’t sell Milk. Okay I would have to change my order, yes orange juice! Everybody danced and sang, oh my hostmum was going crazy, quick!! Record her and I would love to show it to Mum after I go back to Indonesia and she would be madly ‘happy’ that her daughter was really in ‘GOOD HANDS’. Sound a good idea?:)

I drank orange juice a lot and I went to Toilet, Rhenice followed me and just popped out at the door. She said that she was looking for me and her father too, a bit worried that I got lost..No she needed to worry if I got locked at the toilet like couple years ago when I got locked in the toilet in the university. She kept talking even we were in the toilet, and she dropped some coins when she put her pants down. Toilet conversation became so meaningful and we seemed to appreciate little things happening in the toilet! Haha, Rhenice is good because you are Australian, because Indonesian doesn’t talk during peeing haha. She is so crazy and funny, I m really glad that I came to Perth, got a bad families, and then met her family ahahah.. Blessing in disguise.

Rhenice planned to walk home because she and others were drunk, but she asked if it’s okay if I drove them home with big van? I said ya. I had my drunken hostmum and her friend, they still wanna go to party. Wooooah hahah..

Why is LIFE so GOOOOOD? Tell me thousand times, I won’t get bored!:)

Rumah

Betapa aku bersyukur memiliki rumah ini, meskipun perasaan silih berganti tetapi rumah ini memberikan kedamaian disaat hati ini tak serasa memiliki jiwa ini. Rumah yang dibangun dengan susah payah dan menjadi saksi bergantinya hati dan pribadi menjadi pribadi yang berdamai dengan kehidupan. Hati yang pernah remuk redam, namun kembali utuh walau masih terlihat guratan luka akibat tersayat oleh waktu.

Dirumah ini aku belajar untuk mengelola perasaan,membangun pikiran positif dan sikap yang nerimo. Betapa aku akan merindukan rumah ini, rumah yang selalu aku bayangkan akan menemaniku bertumbuh. 

Tak terhitung tetesan airmata tak rela akan rumah ini dihuni orang lain, akan kah mereka merawatnya dengan baik? Atau mengecatnya ulang? 

Maaf, telah berkali-kali membanting daun pintu saat hati ini marah.. Berapa banyak waktu yang telah terbuang, aku sia-siakan? 

Aku akan mendapatkanmu lagi beberapa tahun kedepan? Aku akan menjadi manusia yang lebih baik dan bijak dalam membelanjakan uang? Aku akan lebih mensyukuri apa yang hidup berikan padakau sehingga hidup akan selalu berlaku baik padaku:)

Terimakasih rumahku:)

Emma Sibuk

Emma masih berkutat dengan laporan ekspedisi Sat-Nite yang harus selesai dua hari lagi, pintu kantornya diketuk beberapa kali tapi nampaknya Emma tidak mendengar.Jenny yang kantornya bersebelahan dengan ruangan Emma, terpaksa beranjak dari kursi kerjanya yang empuk dan melihat siapa yang datang.

‘Oh, Hi..Josh! Let me help you, she must be working on something!’

‘Oh, Thank you!’, sahut Josh dengan raut tegang dan memerah seperti biasa saat dia akan bertemu Emma.

Jenny masuk dan melihat Emma sangat serius dengan laptopnya.  Josh lalu meletakkan makan siang Emma dimeja tamu, dan memberikan laporan absen para kadet.

‘Oh sorry, how long have you been standing there?’, Emma masih tidak beranjak dari kursi kerjanya, dan raut muka yang datar. Entah pertanyaan itu ditujukkan untuk siapa.

Jenny menyuruh Emma untuk berhenti bekerja dan menyentuh makan siangnya. Emma hanya mengangguk, mengambil laporan absen kadet, dan menyerahkan pada Josh. Tangan mereka bersentuhan dan ini membuat Josh semakin memerah, teringat kembali apa yang telah mereka lakukan tadi malam.

‘Josh, I am not going home today so don’t wait for me,okay!’

‘Oh, do you need me to bring you a dinner?’

‘No, it’s okay. I can handle it!Anyway, thanks!’, jawab Emma masih menatap layar laptop.

Josh berpamitan dan keluar ruangan, sedangkan Jenny masih disitu dan mulai menata makan siang Emma. Emma seringkali lupa makan atau tepatnya tidak makan, hanya buah-buahan atau sayuran yang ada. Seringkali Emma mengeluh kualitas makanan yang disajikan kepala kantin kurang menarik atau tidak begitu enak, tapi Jenny sudah paham kalau Emma tidak begitu suka makan. Butuh beberapa orang untuk membujuk bahkan memaksanya makan, sehingga seringkali Mrs.Sandra jauh-jauh dari negeri seberang menelpon hanya untuk memastikan anak perempuannya itu setidaknya makan.

‘Come on, Baby Emma! You should eat!’, goda Jenny yang caranya ini dinilai selalu berhasil karena Emma sangat benci sekali jika Jenny dan semua orang memperlakukannya seperti anak kecil.

‘Oh, God! Jenny, stop it or I’ll kick you out of my office!’, Emma beranjak dari kursinya dan melempar kotak tissue ke Jenny, dengan sigap Jenny mengelak. Emma mulai memilih-milih makanannya dan mengambil beberapa sayur dan buah.

‘Jen, let’s have party tonight. I’m so fed up with this report!’

‘Emma, pulanglah. Josh is waiting! I wil be doing out for dinner with Joe tonight’

‘I need to get this report done by tomorrow so I may spend my time here!’,

‘As usual, you are so unpredictable! We’ll drop by!’.

Emma sendirian dikantor, pikirannya melayang memikirkan Josh. Hubungan mereka yang terlarang membuat Emma merasa salah pilih, entah apa yang terjadi dengan dirinya yang begitu dingin tiba-tiba memilih seorang kadet dan juga usianya lebih muda 3 tahun darinya.  

It's a new day

It's 2013!
Well, A shout out from my deepest heart " I am becoming a boring grown up' . I wish I could be 5-7 years younger then I would do a lot of things and trained my self to be a high dedicated person to my school and interests. I would not be slacking off and staying so much at my comfort zone but yah time flies. 'As if..' won't    satisfy this life, I prefer saying 'Well'.
A lot of things need some fixings, haha time to get rid of things that are treated as a danger.. I would not negotiate what harms my life later. I promise I'd be better! Fingers crossed! :)

Words that They may be off the record

I thought that Time would turn everything but I was wrong! I can not stand on my feet to be a good person. I need some voices that change the world to be as normal as it is

We both have changed, we might notice it or not but the pleasure is on me and I win more than you, I think. The brick walls have collapsed and you have helped me through them, you realise or not but you did and always do! That’s what friends are for..

I stop holding a grudge against the people this young and I dont wont to keep holding a grudge against the people that old like my father, my mother, and my grandmother do! You teach me many things and I bet what you have said to me is never in vain..I may be as stubborn as a donkey but I listen though my face doesnt explain it! I hope we grow and learn together to face the music that sometimes BITES!